So, I don’t know if anyone will actually read these, or care what’s going on in my current life. But, I have a lot that I need to say that I honestly don’t think anyone would listen to without judging me. So tumblr is now my go to place to just express how I feel, and share my stories, andtell about my day, because I lost the only person who would ever listen to any of that and actually give a fuck. So, this is my first expression blog, and god only knows what i’m going to say.
So where to start!
This weekend has seriously been crazy! Friday was the first time that Matthew actually agreed to see me since we broke up, without me forcing myself over there. I wanted to show him how much I cared by hanging up banners that I made that said that I loved him and how much I wanted him to forgive me, I was going to hang them off of a railroad bridge by his house, but decided not to follow through because I feel like that would scare him off, and he FINALLY agreed to see me, so why would I want to ruin that? But we didn’t really hang out, I took him to get my phone bill money and then I left, we barely even spoke about anything. I’m also trying to quote quote cute things from like the vow, and he just replies with stupid hurtful stuff, it really kills me, so on that note, WHY THE FUCK CAN I NOT MOVE ON?! Why would I want something who is SO rude to me when I have people who would treat me like a princess? but the thing is, I can’t let go.. I am SO head over heals for this boy its crazy, but he just does not see it, it hurts, it hurts more than anything in the entire world,
So Friday after that little talk, I ended up going to a party and getting completely trashed. But I don’t care, I had the time of my life, I even got to see people that I havent seen in a few years, it was like one big ol’ family reunion, I loved it! However, I stayed the night with my best friend and woke up very red, and very itchey, SUPRISE! I had an allergic reaction to her fabric softener and broke out in hives, bet you can guess what I did saturday night, THATS RIGHT! I spent the night in the ER, seriously the worst pain in the world, they currently have me on three different medications. Its pretty crazy! and today, I had a pretty chill day, went to chipotle and chilled with some friends.
NOT LOOKING FORWARD TO SCHOOL TOMORROW AT ALL!
However, I do have a three day week this week in school, and nextweekend is going to be a blast, so I have a lot to look forward to to get me through the week, I also have a lot that I need to focus on this week in school, so it’s going to be a short week that is going to drag on forever because I have soooo much stuff to catch up on, (that I should probably be doing now) but anywho, yeah, thats been my crazy weekend.
Love and Rockets, Cherish <3