I will survive,only to eat you alive.

I'm Cherish. 17. Senior. Hopelessly in love with someone who hates me.

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I’ve slowly, but surely healing. It’s getting better. I’m realizing I can do better, and this is not the end of the world. It’s not. I’m not going to let a boy define me, I’m not.

School sucks. Point blank.

I’ve met some truely incredable friends recently, I would’nt have been able to do that without closing doors in my past to open new ones in my future.

I’ve became obsessed with work lately. It’s seriously all I do.

I’m going to write my pen pal back now. kbaiiiii.

I’d like to start off saying that I got this cute ass OSU sweater today <3
My day has seriously been FUCKED THE FUCK UP.
So, to start off my morning, I got in a car accident on my way to school this morning. So kid didnt slow down at a red light and rear ended the fuck out of my car. Note: I just got my car back yesterday from being in the shop for a week. I seriously almost fought this kid. I get out of my car yelling all kinds of shit at this kid, and do you know what he says? “I guess this isnt the best way to get a girls number” Are you kidding me.. Then he walks to his headlight, peels off the paint from my car that was on it and hands it to me, ITS 7AM, I CANT DEAL WITH THAT!!
But anywho, after that I started a pretty sweet animated christmas card, and failed a gov test.
Then went to work, and got this lovely sweater. And got off early. Then went to canes. :DDDDD <333
and now here I am,
Im supposed to be writting a paper, but no thanks. — I’d like to start off saying that I got this cute ass OSU sweater today <3

My day has seriously been FUCKED THE FUCK UP.

So, to start off my morning, I got in a car accident on my way to school this morning. So kid didnt slow down at a red light and rear ended the fuck out of my car. Note: I just got my car back yesterday from being in the shop for a week. I seriously almost fought this kid. I get out of my car yelling all kinds of shit at this kid, and do you know what he says? “I guess this isnt the best way to get a girls number” Are you kidding me.. Then he walks to his headlight, peels off the paint from my car that was on it and hands it to me, ITS 7AM, I CANT DEAL WITH THAT!!

But anywho, after that I started a pretty sweet animated christmas card, and failed a gov test.

Then went to work, and got this lovely sweater. And got off early. Then went to canes. :DDDDD <333

and now here I am,

Im supposed to be writting a paper, but no thanks.

Day two:
So today was kind of stressful, I didnt go to my morning classes because I was so itchy from my breakout. However. they have me on three different meds, one which I have to take 3 times a day, another that I have to take twice, and the last I have to take once a day, and I didnt believe them at first, but they said I was going to want to do anything but sit still, I would want to get up and clean, and just be active.. needless to say I didnt go to bed until 3am, Im still going strong, I went on a mile long run today, and ive done nothing but move around, its killing me, Im exhausted but I just can not go to sleep to save my life.
I found out that I have a math quiz tomorrow, as well as a government test, and a zoology test on wednesday, kill me now! Good thing its only a three day week, I dont think I would be able to survive otherwise.
I went and got the last thing of mine matthew had, I went with his sister and she got out and got it for me, while I sat in the car, I did cry, but I did not get out of the car. His best friend called me a bitch as we drove away. It really hurt me that he didnt stand up for me.. but that just made me realize a little more that I need to move on, and that he doesnt care about me at all anymore, I hate to say it, but I feel like hes wasted a year and a half on me, I’m seriously having a meltdown..
On that note, I cant sleep, so Im going to work on some homework, put away my clothes, study, and probably do my hair or something.
Goodnight! — Day two:

So today was kind of stressful, I didnt go to my morning classes because I was so itchy from my breakout. However. they have me on three different meds, one which I have to take 3 times a day, another that I have to take twice, and the last I have to take once a day, and I didnt believe them at first, but they said I was going to want to do anything but sit still, I would want to get up and clean, and just be active.. needless to say I didnt go to bed until 3am, Im still going strong, I went on a mile long run today, and ive done nothing but move around, its killing me, Im exhausted but I just can not go to sleep to save my life.

I found out that I have a math quiz tomorrow, as well as a government test, and a zoology test on wednesday, kill me now! Good thing its only a three day week, I dont think I would be able to survive otherwise.

I went and got the last thing of mine matthew had, I went with his sister and she got out and got it for me, while I sat in the car, I did cry, but I did not get out of the car. His best friend called me a bitch as we drove away. It really hurt me that he didnt stand up for me.. but that just made me realize a little more that I need to move on, and that he doesnt care about me at all anymore, I hate to say it, but I feel like hes wasted a year and a half on me, I’m seriously having a meltdown..

On that note, I cant sleep, so Im going to work on some homework, put away my clothes, study, and probably do my hair or something.

Goodnight!

So, I don’t know if anyone will actually read these, or care what’s going on in my current life. But, I have a lot that I need to say that I honestly don’t think anyone would listen to without judging me. So tumblr is now my go to place to just express how I feel, and share my stories, andtell about my day, because I lost the only person who would ever listen to any of that and actually give a fuck. So, this is my first expression blog, and god only knows what i’m going to say.
So where to start!
This weekend has seriously been crazy! Friday was the first time that Matthew actually agreed to see me since we broke up, without me forcing myself over there. I wanted to show him how much I cared by hanging up banners that I made that said that I loved him and how much I wanted him to forgive me, I was going to hang them off of a railroad bridge by his house, but decided not to follow through because I feel like that would scare him off, and he FINALLY agreed to see me, so why would I want to ruin that? But we didn’t really hang out, I took him to get my phone bill money and then I left, we barely even spoke about anything. I’m also trying to quote quote cute things from like the vow, and he just replies with stupid hurtful stuff, it really kills me, so on that note, WHY THE FUCK CAN I NOT MOVE ON?! Why would I want something who is SO rude to me when I have people who would treat me like a princess? but the thing is, I can’t let go.. I am SO head over heals for this boy its crazy, but he just does not see it, it hurts, it hurts more than anything in the entire world,
So Friday after that little talk, I ended up going to a party and getting completely trashed. But I don’t care, I had the time of my life, I even got to see people that I havent seen in a few years, it was like one big ol’ family reunion, I loved it! However, I stayed the night with my best friend and woke up very red, and very itchey, SUPRISE! I had an allergic reaction to her fabric softener and broke out in hives, bet you can guess what I did saturday night, THATS RIGHT! I spent the night in the ER, seriously the worst pain in the world, they currently have me on three different medications. Its pretty crazy! and today, I had a pretty chill day, went to chipotle and chilled with some friends.
NOT LOOKING FORWARD TO SCHOOL TOMORROW AT ALL!
However, I do have a three day week this week in school, and nextweekend is going to be a blast, so I have a lot to look forward to to get me through the week, I also have a lot that I need to focus on this week in school, so it’s going to be a short week that is going to drag on forever because I have soooo much stuff to catch up on, (that I should probably be doing now) but anywho, yeah, thats been my crazy weekend.
Love and Rockets, Cherish <3 — So, I don’t know if anyone will actually read these, or care what’s going on in my current life. But, I have a lot that I need to say that I honestly don’t think anyone would listen to without judging me. So tumblr is now my go to place to just express how I feel, and share my stories, andtell about my day, because I lost the only person who would ever listen to any of that and actually give a fuck. So, this is my first expression blog, and god only knows what i’m going to say.

So where to start!

This weekend has seriously been crazy! Friday was the first time that Matthew actually agreed to see me since we broke up, without me forcing myself over there. I wanted to show him how much I cared by hanging up banners that I made that said that I loved him and how much I wanted him to forgive me, I was going to hang them off of a railroad bridge by his house, but decided not to follow through because I feel like that would scare him off, and he FINALLY agreed to see me, so why would I want to ruin that? But we didn’t really hang out, I took him to get my phone bill money and then I left, we barely even spoke about anything. I’m also trying to quote quote cute things from like the vow, and he just replies with stupid hurtful stuff, it really kills me, so on that note, WHY THE FUCK CAN I NOT MOVE ON?! Why would I want something who is SO rude to me when I have people who would treat me like a princess? but the thing is, I can’t let go.. I am SO head over heals for this boy its crazy, but he just does not see it, it hurts, it hurts more than anything in the entire world,

So Friday after that little talk, I ended up going to a party and getting completely trashed. But I don’t care, I had the time of my life, I even got to see people that I havent seen in a few years, it was like one big ol’ family reunion, I loved it! However, I stayed the night with my best friend and woke up very red, and very itchey, SUPRISE! I had an allergic reaction to her fabric softener and broke out in hives, bet you can guess what I did saturday night, THATS RIGHT! I spent the night in the ER, seriously the worst pain in the world, they currently have me on three different medications. Its pretty crazy! and today, I had a pretty chill day, went to chipotle and chilled with some friends.

NOT LOOKING FORWARD TO SCHOOL TOMORROW AT ALL!

However, I do have a three day week this week in school, and nextweekend is going to be a blast, so I have a lot to look forward to to get me through the week, I also have a lot that I need to focus on this week in school, so it’s going to be a short week that is going to drag on forever because I have soooo much stuff to catch up on, (that I should probably be doing now) but anywho, yeah, thats been my crazy weekend.

Love and Rockets, Cherish <3

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